Sunday, October 30, 2011

Reclaiming my life Day 28

well I tried to keep up the momentum but life got a little silly again and I ran out of spoons each day, (google Spoon Theory, couldn't work out how to put the link in once I'd started) also I spent last week in Brisbane working at The Quilt & Craft Show which was fantastic, very busy & exhausting but great to chat with like minded people and catching up with my friend Christine who is also a wonderful host & makes me feel very welcome in their home for the week.
Had to lay low for a few days to recover from standing and talking for 5 days but getting back on track slowly.
Yesterday I started culling, more clothes to go to charity & also packed 3 boxes of delicates in the lounge room, Budgie lamps (a few), hat & model car collection, so now that the lounge room is looking a little bare in some areas it actually makes me feel as though the move is going to happen, the last 6 months of getting stuff out of the house & trying to sort & cull here in the tiny flat or out in the garage has seemed like I've been going around in circles but now it's full steam ahead, have my exhibition and the quilt show behind me & now my focus is on packing & getting outa here.
Have a window of a few days so about to head over to the house to survey what I still have left to chuck or get out & see my boys who are dog sitting.

Friday, October 14, 2011

Reclaiming my life Day 11 & 12

Posting every second day seems to be my pattern so we will run with that for a while and see how I go.
Yesterday morning Mackenzie and I went on a fact finding mission to the Telstra shop to find out if we could help my poor Blackberry or other phone options to think about.
Home for a quick lunch then off to my regular Thur afternoon meeting.

This morning saw Mackenzie and I off early to que at the Telstra shop for the release of the new iphone, we were no 8 in line so within the hour I was the proud owner of a new suppa doopa phone.
It just seems so bizarre to have this new phone but I am actually saving nearly $40 on my phone plan each month, so I had no choice really but to upgrade now did I!
Spent the afternoon setting up and transferring the data from the Blackberry and trying to work out how to drive it.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Reclaiming my life Day 9 & 10

I'm having trouble keeping on track and staying focused with writing every day but I'll try to keep on task.
Yesterday was spent at art school, now that my exhibition is over and I'm moving I'm not going to make any more pieces as I have to start sorting my stuff that I have there (a locker & 5 shelves oops), having been there in the studio for 5 wonderful years I have accumulated/amassed a wonderful array of treasures (other peoples trash) that I have to cull, my working stock, a lot of which has been passed onto me over time so I will pass it onto others. Had a good talk with Kevin my head sculpture teacher about the new direction I'm thinking of taking my art when I move to Perth, thanks Kevin for your input.

Today didn't get off to a good start as my faithful Blackberry started to play up, the scroll mouse won't roll down anymore so it is causing problems accessing my mail and address book info, very frustrating, we can't seem to fix it so I think it's days may be numbered, I'm so glad that I got Mackenzie to back it up onto the laptop last week.
Today was a running around day I had a good massage in the morning then another appointment in the afternoon then spent the rest of the arvo resting with my feet up.

It is very late and way past my bedtime so I hope what I've written makes sense, so good night all.

Monday, October 10, 2011

Reclaiming my life Day 7 & 8

well I lost momentum and didn't get to post yesterday cause I was busy watching cars on the telly go round n round a race track all day at Bathurst, it was a good day.

Today has been good, didn't go to school today as I had to run some errands, visit to the chiropractor etc, had some time in between appointments so was able to spend 1/2 and hour watching the ocean with an ice cream.

The ocean is my happy place that I go when I need some "me time" with my thoughts but I usually end up having a cry as I still try to process all the crap that this past year has thrown at me but today was different, don't know why, after about 5 mins I was getting restless thinking I couldn't stay there but I focused on a seagull and just watched it walking around and realised I could just sit there and actually stop my thoughts running away with me and going over and over the same stuff that I couldn't control or change. Hopefully I've turned a corner.

I have put this photo as my desktop today


it is a Bug-eyed Sprite, my older sister had one of these when I was a teenager and I've wanted one for the last 40 odd years so it is there now to motivate me as one of my dreams that I hope to achieve once I move to Perth.

Fingers crossed I can stay on the up

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Reclaiming my life Day 6

Did not get off to a good start today, didn't want to get out of bed this morning so didn't really achieve what I'd wanted to do today but did go and have a cuppa with my friend Anna who wasn't well so I took cakes from the bakery to make us feel better, ran a few ideas past Anna and she helped me make a few decisions about how to deal with selling alot of my collectibles, thanks Anna you are a good friend.

I've decided to try the Pollyanna approach to life and play the Glad game and try and find something to be glad about in amongst all the crap that keeps getting thrown at me.

So wish me luck

Friday, October 7, 2011

Reclaiming my life Day 5

wow a bit of a roller coaster day today, had a discussion with soon to be ex which didn't end well so that put a downer on my mood for the morning but ran a few errands in town and that got me back on track.
Enjoying the evening, the guys have some mates over tonight so I made a big bowl of spaghetti bolognaise to feed them all, they are enjoying themselves playing a new leggo game along the lines of Dungeons and Dragons, I like the fact that my boys are taking their time growing up!

must be time for a cup of tea.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Reclaiming my life Day 4

This morning was spent running around on the computer then following up stuff on the phone and was then able to tick 3 things off my long list of stuff to do.
Had an early afternoon meeting, then another errand took me near the beach so I decided to go to my "happy place" and watch the ocean for a while but in the short time I was there the weather changed and turned extremely cold and windy so couldn't stay long as I wasn't dressed for the change.
Did a little research this arvo into a new direction I'm thinking of heading once in Perth.
Now to watch Star Trek then off to bed - nite all.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Reclaiming my life Day 3

not a lot to report today, started the day off in a good positive mood, I always start off my day in the shower to warm up my bones so I can function and let the shower gods take control and sort out my thoughts for the day, a lot of my major decisions have been made in the shower! I've come up with a few new plans that I need to investigate some more before revealing anything but putting out some feelers with friends in Perth for when I move, will keep you posted on what they are when the time comes.
Had a lovely lunch catch up with my girlfriend Nic then spent the afternoon running around doing errands and sorting paperwork, all of this paperwork keeps getting in the way of me sorting and packing and some days feel like I'm getting nowhere fast so hopefully tomorrow I can start to make another dent in the kaos.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Reclaiming my life Day 2

today was spent with my head buried in paperwork, my other sister and I have gone for joint power of attorney/guardianship of mum and it is a minefield but I got through what I had to do today and finally got the paperwork in the mail to my sister to sign and send them all on their respective ways, it took all day but it is done.
The afternoon was made bearable and put a smile on my face after a couple of catch ups on the phone with some good friends, put out some feelers for when I move to Perth, setting the wheels in motion for some new changes.
Mackenzie and I have had spaghetti bolognaise for dinner so now it's time to put the feet up with a cuppa in front of the telly and maybe even get the knitting out.

Monday, October 3, 2011

Reclaiming my life Day 1

well, you may wonder why I've been missing in action for well over a year, my life has some what been turned upside down this past year, I am now a single person again after 23 years of marriage and 5 months ago I lost my oldest sister very suddenly to a very fast and furious cancer but I was thankful to spend the last 4 days with her.
I have made the decision to move back to Perth as my sister was my mothers carer and feel it is the right time to move back to my home town to look after mum and find myself again.
So my days are spent sorting and packing boxes ready for the move, so today is day 1 of moving forward and reclaiming myself, so my blog will be more the mundane of life as there hasn't been much else over the year, no quilts made, no projects written for the magazine but I've still managed to stay at art school and produce enough sculptures to have just been part of a group exhibition where I sold 3 pieces so I've still been able to channel my grief and sadness of the past year into something constructive, so today I have sorted and thrown out 2 boxes of stuff, reorganised some room in my bedroom for the sculptures that came back from the gallery yesterday, did 2 loads of washing and spent a bit of quality time with my boys (young men).
So now its time for dinner, good night.